So now that this time of year has arrived, I'm hearing all these students' wails and cries of fear. Finals are here. And we start to contemplate life.
My last week of high school was probably the worst week of my life so far. There were lots of tears and blood and sweat. I failed some tests, and I passed others. All I could see was a thick fog of words and paper, and I thought I might actually go into shock. But I got through it. My biggest problem was later when I bombed the SAT. When it happened I was kind of thinking, "What now?" I just bombed one of the biggest tests of my life, and the college I applied to didn't accept me because of it. Had I just ruined my education? My hopes for a good job? My life? I gotta admit I was pretty depressed. I tried to keep my chin up, but I felt like terribly stupid person. I didn't know what to do.
But all this turmoil inside me happened because I had forgotten the most important thing.
My life wasn't mine.
It was God's.
I was thinking that it was all up to me to be successful. Well, my version of successful. Which isn't truly successful to begin with. God's version of my life is very different and FAR better than my puny version. So if I tried my hardest and I still got a bad score and didn't get into college, then I know It wasn't meant to happen at that time. God had something better he wanted me to do. I wasn't planning for me to take a year off of school, but God was. And I can have confidence that everything is going to turn out great. Because that's what happens when you give your life to God. There's no way you can ruin your life when you're not even the one controlling it. And you can trust that God won't steer it wrong. He's the one who created it. His entire plan for you is the best plan there is. You can't lose.
And even though I can't see the whole map or where the big X is, I can see a few landmarks that I've already passed through. Like Mexico. I doubt I would have been able to go if I had been in school these past few months. Oh yeah, btw, I'M BAAAACK!! Didn't get captured. Mexico was great. I learned a lot, met some great people, built a house, and spread some love. You all should go there. ANYWAYS, I've also learned a lot about living and people. And living with people. I learned how to run a home. I learned that you can find instructions for EVERYTHING. I learned how to drive better. I learned that without your license your life is basically pretty much nothing. I was able too be involved more in the Awana ministry. I learned you can make friends with anyone no matter who they are or what their age is, old or young. I started a blog. I figured out my passions. And I've learned that life is more than school. But don't get me wrong, a good education is priceless.
But the point is, don't stress and let God do His thing.
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